Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
I like this blogging challenge b/c it is making me think about things. When I read today's post, I honestly had no idea what to post about. I even asked my husband what my biggest insecurity was and he first told me to post a blank white square b/c he said I was perfect (cue awws here). Then, he told me to post a picture with 18 kids b/c he knows I am AFRAID to have lots of kids.
So, I've thought all morning as I have been cleaning and doing laundry, what is my biggest insecurity? And I was reminded of this good old mormonad.
I can relate to everyone in that picture, the ones looking at the book, completely oblivious to anyone else, the one turning to look at the girl by herself, and the girl who is completely insecure.
When I was little, I was about as nerdy as they come. That didn't even begin to change until about 8th grade, when I lost my 80's bangs, huge circle glasses, and leggings. I clearly remember sitting in a history class on the first day of 8th grade and a boy that I knew sitting in front of me, turning around and introducing himself. I wanted to scream, "Hello! Don't you remember me? We were in 3 of the same classes last year!" but instead I took it as a compliment and let him figure it out on his own.
While on the outside, I have outgrown my uber nerdy days, a piece of that has stayed with me. I don't know when the day will come that I stop caring about what everyone else thinks about me. I HATE that I care. And that, friends, is my biggest insecurity. Fitting in.